I was driving down the road the other day with a drink on my lap, an open barbecue packet in one hand and a hamburger in the other. And I needed to hand a napkin back to my child because she had spilled the barbecue sauce on herself (which is why I had it in my hand). My drink would’t fit in my drink holder, and I was trying to eat my hamburger. Fortunately my child had her chicken nuggets already or something probably would have been dropped on the floor.
Sometimes, I wonder if this is how I run my life. I’m heading 45 mph in heavy traffic trying to balance everything in my little world and sooner or later something is bound to fall. The tough thing is, what do I get rid of? My child likes barbecue sauce with her chicken nuggets (most of the time I think she eats more sauce than nugget), I obviously want my hamburger and a drink to wash it down. I’m smart enough to leave my fries in the bag on the seat next too me, so they’re there but I’m not dealing with them at the moment.
I’m heading through life, making sure my kids get to participate in the opportunities and events they like, maintaining the things I need to do (cleaning the house, cooking, managing our small business, etc.) and washing it down with the things I like (sewing, reading, etc.) and then keeping my dreams in a bag on the seat (I don’t have time for them right now, but I’ll make a grab towards them every time I get a hand free from my other stuff).
Sometimes I have to ask myself if this is healthy. Do I let go of what I want to fulfill the things I need to do, or do I minimize the things I need to do and pursue my dreams. And how do I encourage my children to succeed and follow their dreams? How do I help my husband with his dreams? And where’s the balance, because dropping anything makes a mess!